Carolyn W.

I have been asked to share my story….Here goes nothing. I started this journey about 7-8 years ago. I have always battled with my weight since I was a little girl. Food has always been my best friend. It comforted me and never talks back and always satisfied the feelings I was dealing with. Life happened and I became so dependent on food to comfort me through all my issues. Food and I had a love hate relationship. I’m sure most of you can relate to that.
On November 2, 2016 I was sleeved. I never was excited and when I woke up it didn’t feel real. Sometimes it still doesn’t because I don’t see what everyone else does. I have struggled through out this journey on many levels. I think the biggest struggle has been mental. I am bipolar, medicated, well I was before surgery. Since surgery my stomach will not tolerate my meds. I was on the perfect cocktail. I spent a good 4 years trying to find that perfect cocktail and in one day it was gone. Being bipolar isn’t an easy ride at all on the best of days but now its even harder. This journey alone is a very mental ride. I keep trying to think of something I have accomplished on this journey……I think the biggest thing is I have found me, I found my voice. I kept trying to think of something I have done but I think for me my biggest accomplishment has just being able to be me… and I love it! My impossible goal…… I have a few. I can run! Not that I do it but I can if I want lol I want to go horse back riding so bad! Haha yes that’s one of my impossible goals. My other was to fall in love and that happened!!! Next summer I am going to marry my best friend and with him comes hiking, he is a big hiker and is determined to get me out in the woods….I’m so excited BUT don’t tell him that!! Lol
Going into this journey I was well informed about what could happen and I accepted that but I wish someone would have told me to be more patient with myself. During the times of learning your new stomach and food all over again. I was so scared of food! I’m still learning that I have to find patience in myself. Its crazy to sit here and think about some of these answers to the questions. Most days I still don’t believe this truly happened to me. I was given a second chance at life and I couldn’t be more grateful at how is it turning out. Even with all the struggles and complications that came along with this journey…..I would do it all over again in a heart beat! Sleeved Nov. 2/16 HW 263 SW 233 CW 132

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